August 2011
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My Sleepy Sweetheart
We are tired. We’re also at a crossroads, where third shift is making life a little harder to navigate. What I have to do to help, I fail to realize until it’s too late, and then he suffers. That breaks my heart.
Robert was sick this weekend, with an infection that started in his ear and has made it’s way downward. I think that’s a good thing. What sucked is that his...
July 2011
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Yawn
So tired, but can’t lay down until my heartburn passes.
Anonymous asked: I stumbled upon your site today and smiled at your entries. Hang in there and keep up the great work!
Cheers,
A random female stranger (not all of us are bad ;) )
Cheers,
A random female stranger (not all of us are bad ;) )
Anonymous asked: If I may ask, why doesn't your mom want to be there when you give birth?
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Tired of Others
I’m starting to become annoyed at the baby forum I have been on since I found out I was pregnant. I only keep to “Second Trimester” and “November 2011” because they’re most relevant to my thoughts and situation. I can’t stand so many of the people that post on there though! I almost feel like some of them should be required to take a pregnancy IQ test or a...
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Day Twenty: What Are You Looking Forward to Most...
I’m looking forward to so many things. Raising a good kid, teaching them everything I can, and instilling morals and discipline in a person, where it’s actually my responsibility to do so. I want to share my own experiences, but also watch them go off and make their own path. I want to see someone who is a perfect combination of myself and Robert.
Watching Robert as a father, and...
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Day Nineteen: Who Will Be in the Delivery Room...
The only family I want to accompany me is Robert! I do not want any other family or friends, unless my mom decides she wants to, though she has already made it clear she won’t be coming.
I am so shy and super modest, so the last thing I want is for there to be people I barely know. If my midwife is there, that would be nice too, since she’s the one I’ve been seeing this entire...
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Day Eighteen: Do You Plan On Breastfeeding?
Yes, I plan on breastfeeding. At the very least, giving it my very best go. I know it’s going to be painful. I also know it’s going to change the shape of my natural breasts forever. I can only hope that it is something I can be dedicated to, through the pain and my insecurity.
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Whiny Morning
Today has started off rocky. I realize that every day can’t be rainbows and lollipops. I just want to understand why I can feel so completely different from day to day. It’s like I worked so hard to block out all the things that bring me down, and when they’re presented, it’s a slap in the face.
I’m obviously caught up in being super thrilled that I have a great new...
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Day Seventeen: Who Will Help You Most When Your...
I think Robert’s mom and grandma are going to be great contributors, since I already heard his grandma has said “I hope she’s not stingy with the baby.” That made me laugh. I am kind of stingy.
Everyone I know and love as a whole will be the most help. There’s not a single person who has not made this pregnancy a wonderful experience.
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Day Sixteen: Parenting Tips You’ve Learned From...
I’ve been following What To Expect on Twitter, and they post some really great tips. My family has given me some things to think about, like opting for a C-section just because it’s really not so bad, and a lot less stressful.
My parents kept me very busy with sports and hobbies as I grew up, so I never really got into any trouble.
I plan to use the 3 B’s: bath- book- bed-...
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Ow.
There is an appendage lodged into my left side.
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Day Fifteen: How Are You Feeling?
Physically, like a walrus. I’m really itchy today and even though I’ve rubbed concentrated cream, anti-itch oil (all by Palmer) and regular lotion all over my itchy spots, there’s no relief. So I’m drinking water by the gallon in an effort to thwart any stretch marks. :|
Mentally, I want to kill most people. I’m lucky Robert is understanding, and knows when to...
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I finally got tired of dealing with what seemed like a rootkit, so I deleted all of my partitions and installed a newer version of Windows. I am so glad I did! It’s pretty :) and it’s about time.
Baby’s been kicking all afternoon. I did have a white mocha so it might be from the caffeine and sugar! I spent most of the morning and afternoon cleaning like a madwoman. I’m as...
Funyons
I am gonna miss these mornings. I love routines, especially ones where I get to spend time with my love.
We’re watching Breaking Bad season 3 for the second time.
It's Just a Little Crush
Not like everything I do depends on you…
Wish you would get out of my mind. I think you do it on purpose.
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You're Excluded!
I’m tired of people following/unfollowing me on Twitter, probably because I don’t return follows. So now you can all fuck off, my Twitter is private.
I don’t like people, and for good reason. For one, good people are super hard to find. The majority of you are idiots.
Just today, for example, I abandoned my shopping cart in the store for a literal minute, walked about 6 ft...
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Doctor Appointment
My CNM said I have a perfect uterus today after she measured it. I did not think she would ever say anything like that.
Everything is moving along normally. The only thing that is a concern is my abnormal pap smear. I have LSIL - precancerous cells on my cervix. I will have to have another one after the baby arrives, in case I need to have them removed and they don’t disappear. I’d be...
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Day Fourteen: A Picture of a Baby That You Feel...
I’m skipping this. I think it’s bullshit. My baby is going to resemble me, and I don’t have a baby photo of me at this home.
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Day Thirteen: How Are You Preparing For the Baby?
I am preparing by cleaning, organizing, researching baby gear, creating a registry, eating well, etc. I am not prepared in the sense that I have not made a single purchase for any products, furniture, or gear, but I figure there’s still time.
I don’t think there’s any way to really mentally prepare, because there’s nothing to compare this experience to. There’s no...
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Let Me Blow Your Mind
I didn’t believe Dooce when I read her claims in her book about her insomnia (hers may have been different, I think she suffered it after Leta’s birth). I just brushed it off, and never thought to check if it was a common symptom amongst other women. Never feared I would be floating in that same boat. Confidently thought to myself I’d trained myself for years to lay down when I...
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Four O'Clock
Baby spinach salad, my homemade vinaigrette, real Parmesan cheese. Mmm…
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Day Twelve: How Did You Tell Your Parents? The...
I called my mom and dad on my way to work the day after I found out, when I was 5 weeks along. My mom took the news very well, as if she already seen it coming. My dad yelled “no!!” I couldn’t rush him off the phone, so I was late to work (I didn’t care, I’d planned to quit anyway).
Robert and I had dinner with his parents one night, when I was about 6 weeks along,...
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Day Eleven: The Baby Shower - What Do You...
At first I was against the idea, but then I thought about how helpful it might be. Robert and I don’t really have girlfriends, because I can’t seem to find ones I can count on or relate to, and his buddies’ girls’ are most likely not going to come since I never go to any of their showers. So, it’s kind of intimidating to invite people to something they will most...
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Day Ten: A Picture of Your Baby Bump and How You...
I feel great about my look right now. I feel very healthy and happy! I am very excited to be where I’m at with everything in my life right now.
The bump changes constantly, no lie. One photo it can look a lot larger, and the next it looks smaller than it did before. This photo was taken the same day as the last one I posted, but it looks bigger! I need to take an updated one, but...
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Pimento Cheese Dip
I was just hanging out at the house yesterday, when the craving for pimento cheese hit me. I’ve not had it since 2008, the first time I made it, so I was in need.
Not really a southern chef, as I did zero cooking growing up, I had no idea where to really get a good recipe. My mom doesn’t make it, and my dad’s girlfriend never made it either. I had only one option, to scour the...
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Day Nine: What Sex Did You Hope For?
I was prepared to have either, and I did and do not have any hopes for anything other than a healthy baby! It’s unfair to hope for a particular sex. The baby can’t help what their sex is, and what if they find out? I would not want to have any effect on their gender, so I’d be excited for either.
MIL did ask this very same question, to which I did confide that I am nervous to...
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This Is Getting Interesting
Yeah so… in a moment of needing to express myself… I must say that bf and I finally broke our dry spell today. It was so difficult to enjoy! At 23 weeks, I am starting to really feel like I am carrying another person around, albeit the tiniest, cutest little person, and let me just state that there may not be a lot more room left for much more soon.
Right now though, I’m...
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Day Eight: What is Your Biggest Food Craving?
There is not one that stands out, because I get all kinds of different cravings. Italicized are the ones I’ve been advised to avoid.
sushi
capers
cheerios
steak burrito
soft serve ice cream
spicy garlic buffalo wings
cheese (non-pasteurized)
That’s all I can think of right now. I’m hungry!
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Bits and Pieces
So my MIL is my newest source of frustration, even though she means well. She gets her own post.
I love her and she’s actually great. We go shopping together and I feel pretty close to her. Yesterday she asked if I’d like to go shopping and I didn’t get the call so it went to vmail. I was at that point out and not ready to go and she apparently got tired of waiting for my...
